Even though my pregnancy means the world to me… this post means a lot toooo. I have put it at the top of the page. I haven’t been feeling so well so I am not sure how much I’ll be around the blogging world the next few days. While I am gone… please take time to read William’s story…

I have read and read and read about him. I have worried myself to death about what exactly I was going to write about someone I really didn’t know… I had no clue how to put my words into type. I struggled and struggled. This past Wednesday I finally found the words… well, they found me in my dreams…
I sat in the fog outside a little cafe off of a street that looked like what one would see in a painting. You know, the paintings with the little cafe, people sipping on their coffee as the water colored blob people walk down the street going into little shops along the way. It seemed I knew where I was and that I knew who I was waiting for… although I really felt I had no clue (does that make since?)… Out of the cafe came a handsome man… white/grey hair, glasses and a stature of brilliance gleaming around him. I stood up and waved as if I knew him. He didn’t hesitate; he waved back and started walking my way.
I said something of the sort “Thank you for coming. I am so excited to finally meet you. I feel as though I already know you.”
He smiled with a little goofy grin and said “I enjoy having visitors.”
As I took a drink of my coffee I looked at him. He had a look on his face as if he had so much to tell me but didn’t know how.
I asked “What is on your mind?” as I sat my coffee on the table.
“My life, my life” He whispered.
“What about your life?” I curiously asked.
He looked me dead in the eye and a chill came over me as he softly replied “Did I make them proud?”
“Who Proud?”
“Them.” He blankly stared.
“Yes, you should read everything that has been written about you, my friend. Your family and friends have made it well known what a brilliant, funny, loving man you were. That is why I just had to meet you. You are/were amazing.” I quickly responded.
He leaned back in his chair and spoke with every bit of proud ness he could manage to come out through the tears in his voice “My dear, they are the ones that are amazing. My mother, my father, my sister, my wife, my step-son, my daughter… my, my, my whole family and my friends… They are the ones who are amazing for letting my legacy live on. I have never been so humbled as I am each time I hear any words being uttered about me through them. They have not forgotten… They have not forgotten me.”
I didn’t know what to say except “No one will ever forget… and no one that loves you or ever came in contact with you, will ever forget”
With that being said, he and I both stood up and leaned in over the table as if we were going to hug each other… I heard a faint whisper echo “I enjoy having visitors… if only in their dreams.” I suddenly awoke… I awoke crying. I realized through my dream… I met him.
Maybe my dream was just a fluke because I have been thinking about this man I didn’t know for over 2 months now… Maybe it is because of the baby within me is making me have crazy dreams… maybe he just wanted me to visit him… who knows, whatever the reasoning behind it… I’m honored.

William E. Caswell
William (Bill to his friends and family) was a third-generation physicist. He worked for the US Navy as a senior scientist. He received several navy commendations on his work, one of which cites his role in a “highly successful top priority Chief of Naval operations project of unprecedented technological complexity . . . developing a profoundly new capability for the US Navy.” His work with the Navy was so classified that half the time his family knew very little about his job. His family didn’t know exactly why he was headed to Los Angeles on the American Airline Flight 77 on September 11. His mother stated “It was a trip he often took. We never knew what he was doing there because he couldn’t say. You just learn not to ask questions.”
One of the most interesting facts I read of William was from Physics Today…
Bill was born on 22 June 1947 in Boston. He received both of his degrees in physics: his BS from the University of Maryland, College Park, in 1968 and his PhD from Princeton University in 1975. Bill’s thesis, for which one of us (Callan) was the adviser, contained the first calculation of higher-order renormalization group quantities in non-abelian gauge theory. He was a third-generation physicist: His grandfather, Albert, received one of the first PhDs in physics from Stanford University, and his father, Randall, held an MIT physics PhD.
William came from a long line of genius.
Putting aside his career, he was a beloved son, brother, husband, father and friend. From everything I read, before he parrished, he and his daughter, Jennifer who was 17 at the time of his death, were looking into colleges for her. She too, was headed in the same direction as her father in the world of science. Her education was one of his top priorities.
His wife Jean, step-son Sean, his mother Jean and father Randall, his sister Julia, and his brilliant daughter Jennifer… were a very warm and close-knit family. Every word I have read of him makes me long to have known him.
One More Memory
Andrew Ang, Matthew Tishler & Sara Westbrook
I was lost
In the dark
Confused and afraid
Not knowing what was wrong
A few lost thoughts
Forgetful moments
I never thought
That it would come to this
One more memory
To remember me
For a lifetime come and gone
Goes on and on
When my memory fades
Think of me this way
It’s my mind that’s leaving me
It’s not my heart
Forgotten names
Forgotten faces
I don’t even know
The ones I’ve always loved
When I say
Things I’d never say
Know that my love
Will stay forever strong
Hold this in your heart
One more memory
To remember me
For a lifetime come and gone
Goes on and on
When my memory fades
Think of me this way
It’s my mind that’s leaving me
It’s not my heart
Take my hand
And try to understand
My memories are gone
But my love for you lives on
Remember me for who I was
And not who I’ve become
One more memory
To remember me
For a lifetime come and gone
Goes on and on
When my memory fades
Think of me this way
It’s my mind that’s leaving me
It’s not my heart
This brilliant, humble, family man past from us on 9/11/2001 aboard American Airlines Flight 77 which crashed into The Pentagon.
At a Memorial event in Rockville, Maryland, William’s sister, Julia, brilliantly stated “He was a bright star…”
Thank you, William, for letting me get to know you… if only in my dreams.
…and the music plays on!