Some People Just “Got It”

I have been a blogger for going on 4 years… I think. When I first began blogging I first read Courting Destiny. The blogger, Pia Savage, had me captivated by her writing style. I was hooked. So, for 4 years, give or take, she has been a blogger companion that I can rely on brightening my day and making me think.

I have come to know that Pia never disappoints me and through her reading I learned of her:

• Her Wants
• Her Desires
• Her Love of Family
• Her Love of Democrats
• Her Love of Life

I have also learned her fears and her struggles.

She has now become an open book outside of the blogging world with her article in the Long Island Press…

Our Children’s Brains Part XVII: More Than Just Clumsy: What It’s Like to Live With Nonverbal Learning Disorder

I thought I knew her… now I know her more and love her for being so open. She is a true inspiration and no one can deny it.

and she… is not an ordinary miracle… she is just a straight up miracle with wings.

Here’s to you, Pia…

not so ordinary!

Some Stuff and Obama Has My Vote Now!

Okay… so I am now a blonde… well sort of.  I have gone a little drastic… but I needed some spice in my life… what can I say.  I am getting older, 31 yrs now, and I have to do a little something to make me look younger, RIGHT?  I am not so sure that blonde is making me look younger… but I feel younger…. okay maybe not feel younger, I just try to convince myself.  

Hubby got another raise… he keeps moving up that corporate ladder.  I am so proud of him.

The kids are doing great!  Carter had surgery about a month ago and is doing great!  Little Willy is growing up so fast… God love him… he talks up a storm.  Carter isn’t talking yet, he is 14 months.  Little Willy will not let him talk.

We are seriously thinking about moving to Chattanooga, TN.  We love it there.

My grandfather passed away the middle of May.  It was time for him to go… he had suffered so.

It saddens me as I go through my Favorite Bloggers list that half of the people I use to blog with are not blogging anymore… half of the sites are down or that haven’t blogged since last year.  I suppose I will have to clean my list up.  So sad…

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I have been a little up in the air on the election.  On who I was going to vote for.  I could never see myself voting for McCain… however, I still had mixed emotions about Obama.

I have agreed with a lot of things Obama is going to try and change… because after all we NEED change. 

“We must build a world free of unnecessary barriers, stereotypes, and discrimination …. policies must be developed, attitudes must be shaped, and buildings and organizations must be designed to ensure that everyone has a chance to get the education they need and live independently as full citizens in their communities.”  - YES

BUT… there were some things I wasn’t so sure about!

Tonight after reading Obama disagrees with high court on child rape case I am to a point that I know who I am voting for.  I have always believed if a child is raped that the rapist should be put to death… end of story.  However, I have also believed if a woman or man is raped that the same punishment be implemented.  Once a rapist… always a rapist. 

I knew deep down that something would really trigger me to jump on someone’s band wagon…. I suppose that this has done it for me.

So, here is to OBAMA ‘08 !!!!!

Hope each of you are doing great!  I am still a busy woman… but I suppose that is going to be my life for a very long time.

…it’s just another ordinary miracle today!

Stopped By To Say “Hey”…

Well, I’m still here…

I’m now working from home to be home with Carter.  He has been very sick and I had no choice but to take him out of daycare and work from home.  He will be having surgery next week.  He is getting tubes in his ears and having his adenoids removed.   A simple surgery that we hope will help him.

Carter, my beautiful little boy, turned ONE 3 weeks ago… can you believe it?  I have no words to describe my love for him.  He has been a blessing and I thank God everyday for him.

My Nephew, Little Willy (What a mess) and Sweet Little Carter

Little Willy is doing GREAT!  He is such a mess… into everything!  He loves Transformers now!  He has an entire collection now!  He keeps me laughing and smiling… and tells me he loves me 5 to 10 times a day… I will miss that when he no longer wants to love on his mom!

My hubby is doing great… still climbing the corporate ladder!  He has been working so hard and I think he and I both need a break!  We are planning a trip to “Somewhere”… have no clue where… can’t decide!

Hubby’s grandmother turned 100… we had a large party for her.  She is still living on her own and will live to be 200!  Great Health, Great Personality… she is a BLESSING!!!

I can’t think of anything else… It’s past midnight… my brain is tired.

I just wanted to drop in and tell everyone… “HEY”!  Hope you all are doing great!

…it’s just another ordinary miracle today!

Yes… I’m still here…

I’m still here.  So much has gone on the past 3 months.  My life has been in a whirlwind.  Where do I begin?

1st…  The state I call home… the state that I love so much… was hurt… hurt really bad with the horrible tornadoes that hit in February.   Several of you wrote and asked if I was okay.  I am fine.  Many family members and friends had to re-locate or are choosing to re-build.  All family and friends are doing well… some had minor injuries but nothing major.  However, I had a client, who I just spoke with the week before the horrific monster whirled in, was killed… along with his 4 year old daughter.  When I got the call to inform me of his death… I couldn’t speak… even though I never met him in person, he was a pleasure to speak with.  We always shared stories of our kids.  It hit home… how life can be taken so quickly… in a blink of an eye.  His wife and step son were  injured.  They both have been released from the hospital.  His wife broke her hip and leg and his step son had a lot of cuts but is doing okay.   When visiting Jackson, TN a few weeks ago… it looks like a bomb went off.   Sometimes nature is so beautiful and other times it is tremendously ugly.  My prayers and thoughts continue to be with the people of West TN…

2nd… My entire house hold has been sick… EVERY WEEK… there has been something.

3rd… My Aunt has been diagnosed with Lung Cancer.  She had a large tumor that showed up and it was malignant.  Before they found out she had a tumor… the hospital kept on telling her she had pneumonia.  She finally went for a second opinion and obviously was shocked.  She had the tumor removed along with part of her lung… unfortunately… the cancer had spread to her lymph nodes.  She is currently in the hospital battling her cancer, breathing, obesity and she does now have pneumonia.

4th… My mother’s father has been admitted into the old folks psych ward.  He is having some mental issues.

5th… Back to my house hold being sick… Carter has been so sick… he has horrible allergies, breathing problems and battles with ear infections.  He is only 11 months old.  I am now working from home with him by my side.  We have taken him out of daycare.  He has been having bouts with mild asthma… scary, scary, scary.  We are going to an Ear, Nose, Throat doctor in April to talk about putting tubes in his ears.  They did a hearing test on him and he has no vibrations in his left ear and barely had vibrations in his right.  They said that is why he isn’t saying words… so we are hoping once they put tubes in his ears he will be able to hear better.

6th… I’m tired…

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All in all… I am doing fine.  My family keeps me on my toes.  I am a very lucky girl woman to have these men in my life.

On a lighter note… I turn 31 next week… I can’t believe it.  I am now a 30-something!!!!   Carter will be 1 on the 23rd.  That is tooooooo hard to believe.  He is a big boy…

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I’m still very torn within the politics of this upcoming election… I voted for one and now I am leaning towards the other…. WELL, that’s a whole other post!

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Love to each of you!

…it’s just another ordinary miracle today!

It Will Be A Year…

It will be a year next month. I have yet to return to his grave. Just like my grandparents, I have not shown my respect enough to his final resting spot. Guilt, sadness and fear are some of the feelings I am experiencing. My life, the past year, has been so busy. I try to find every excuse not to go and “visit”.

The other night I sat down, opened my laptop, connected to the Internet and started to review my blog. I clicked on his category, I read every story I wrote about him. I cried…

I do realize I have pushed his death away just like I did my grandparents. I didn’t have a real chance to grieve for him.

I loved him.

He was my “grandfather figure” and I was his “Girl Name Sue“. He made me laugh… He made me worry… He made me think… He made me love….

I have guilt because 2 months prior to his death, I wasn’t able to visit him like I wanted. I was having a difficult pregnancy and couldn’t visit. I wasn’t there when he passed. I feel, sometimes, I should have been there. I didn’t want him to die lonely, like he had lived a majority of his life. I suppose, that is my guilt.

Visiting his final resting place will make it a reality that my friend, I grew to love and who taught me so much, is really gone. I know that he would have wanted me to continue to help his veteran friends. I have not. I suppose it is the fear of becoming attached to someone and losing them just as I start to get to know and love them.

I know that Eugene showed me he loved me in every way. I know that I became like a daughter to him and my oldest son became like a grandson. Towards the end of his life, my family, who was very “nervous” about me being around him, started to fall in love with him.

We brought each other into “worlds” we never knew existed. He brought me into his fantasy world - and a world and life of a different reality I never had experienced. … and I brought him to a world of respect, love and honor… at least I tried to show him a different world than what he had experienced.

Again, I loved him. I never expected to fall in love with the scary man I grew to fear as a child. He made me do it… I couldn’t help it… I thank him so much for that.

I suppose I never summed up my relationship with him… let me do so now…

He was a scary man that I feared as a child and young adult until his last year on earth. He was a lost soul that no one gave a chance. I gave him that chance, or should I say he gave me that chance… a chance to get to know each other… a chance to touch each others lives like they have never been touched before… with friendship, love and so much more. I look back at when he came into my life and I realize I needed him just as much as he needed me. His land far, far away… became my worse enemy. Near the end of his life… I tried to give him the love he needed and he tried to make me smile. I know he appreciated me when he remembered who I was… I just hope he knew how much I appreciated him.

He was my friend… He taught me so much… I miss him… His name was Eugene.

…it’s just another Ordinary miracle today!